numb

listening to portishead. i like portishead.
i skipped property. bad idea. i blame student loans. i have a huge list of things to do, and none of them are fun.

okay i've just decided - for all those who are fun deprived like me and can't/don't wanna go home for thanksgiving, i'm having thanksgiving dinner at my house on sunday, october 9th - potluck and party! come for some mashed potatoes and apple crisp. byot - bring your own turkey - or have some tofurkey, which is delicious (really!)

there's no room for you here

listening to the white stripes. getting ready to go to class. i didn't do my property reading. i gotta stop being cranky. the pro bono meeting yesterday went pretty well. blah. i don't think that i can go dancing tomorrow because it's curriculum night at lemarchant, and the last time i missed this, sam cried. that's one of the big lies of childhood - 'when you grow up you'll be able to do whatever you want.' i am all boxed in.

suppose they close the door

listening to sloan, on the fly. the weather was unusually cold today. or maybe it was just damp.
i just had to answer the door with a facial mask on, one of those peel-off-thingies. everybody drops in on vernon street! it's so social! i think i like it, but i have to get used to it.
dil and i are going to see the cityfields/stills/sloan show tonight, but first we are going to kristen and derek's for a drink. i'm gonna bring some rice krispie squares.
school was rocky today. i skipped a couple of optional things, but don't worry, i got some free food.
i feel tired, and i look it. lots of new wrinkles (hence the facial). people have been nice to me lately. i hope i can return the love...
the weekend is busy.
so is next week.
i am worried that i can't hack it. there is just no wiggle room. i haven't finished a novel that i started at the beginning of september! i am worried that i am going to start resenting school and being bitter, and rebelling against the restrictive calendar-style life that i'm living now...
gotta find balance.

season to leave

i'm listening to the guthries' off windmill. i love this song. i love matt mays. i love yelling WHAT I NEED I WILL GET - WHAT I HATE I'LL FORGET. it always feels so good. what a beautiful day out there! amazing.

*warning*
this post is probably going to be scattered and disorganized. i don't have enough time or brain power to organize it, so i'll just try to put everything in point form so at least it'll be easy to read. welcome to my life.

things that i have done lately:
- i moved.
- i started orientation week at law school.
- i have been to the mall more in the past week then i had been in the past five years.
- i have no furniture in my living room or dining room.
- i sold my car, but i'm not sure how much i am getting paid for it.

for peeps who are wondering about school, here're my first impressions:
- the dal campus is full of freaks who look identical to each other and nothing like me. i guess that means that i might be the real freak, but i am okay with that.
- my professors seem pretty decent.
- the male profs seem more interesting/engaged than the female profs.
- i predict that i am going to like contract law the most and property law the least.
- i am really impressed with the catering so far, sponsored by the different law firms. i spent yesterday eating brie and strawberries and drinking good red wine.
- i am going to do some pro bono work this year. screw the 'time commitment' problem. i want to do it. i'll make time.
- i really, really like sitting in classrooms listening to teachers. it is one of the greatest pleasures in my life and i feel lucky to be doing it again. i can't believe i wasted my free public education. jeez.

speaking of free public education, this morning i got up and made blueberry pancakes for jake and sam. they got dressed and tried on the new sneakers that i bought for them last night while they slept (like the elves and the shoemaker, but more expensive.) then we walked up to the school, jake and sam running ahead, dil walking his bike, and me cradling my coffee mug.

i haven't been sleeping well, and i know why. more accurately, i know all the reasons why:
- strange house.
- loud, drunk college students.
- lots of traffic early in the a.m.
- excitement.
- too many other things to do.
- worrying.
- sam and jake waking up, probably because of the above reasons, and then waking me up.

i think that i'm going to have a little nightcap before bed tonight, and see if that helps. if anyone feels like joining me, come on over, but we might have to sit on the floor!