it's all in your mind

listening to beck, part of a playlist i called 'easy on the ears'. it's cloudy, rainy, foggy, but the weekend is supposed to be good.

i didn't paint the ceiling yesterday. oops! now i have to do it today.

we're going to move to a house on vernon street. we have to sign the lease next week, and give them (chris and laura) the damage deposit. it's both stressful and stress-relieving, depending how i look at it. i like the house. we'll see how it goes.

yesterday was gpd's birthday, and so we're going for drinks tonight. i wanted to see steve and andrea's play, but i am not sure that we'll get a chance to do it - should have gone last night, but i was too lazy.

tomorrow, we are going to fp to get the boys and return the truck. i hope that it is nice so we can go to the beach. i should probably get my dad a little prezzie. we need to talk to jeff about the olvo, too.

also, bestest thing ever: joel plaskett emergency is playing tomorrow night!

sunday is "doing some things we've been meaning to do for a couple of years" day: fixing the ceiling in the laundry room, fixing the back door, and sweeping the dusty basement. blech.

monday is a play day. we need to find something fun that we can do on the cheap. shouldn't be too hard!

we will become silhouettes

library turned on random. the shins are on, covering a postal service song. the weather is foggy and grey.

'I've got a cupboard with cans of food, filtered water,
And pictures of you and i'm not coming out
Until this is all over
And i'm looking through the glass where the light bends
At the cracks
And i'm screaming at the top of my lungs pretending
The echoes belong to someone
Someone i used to know

And we become silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Ba ba ba...

I wanted to walk through the empty streets
And feel something constant under my feet,
But all the news reports recommended that
I stay indoors
Because the air outside will make our cells
Divide at an alarming rate until our shells
Simply cannot hold all our insides in,
And that's when we'll explode
(and it won't be a pretty sight)

And we become silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Ba ba ba...'

yup, now that's a cheerful little song. dil and i biked to the bitter end last night for dinner. it was pretty good. when we got home i talked to jake (he had called and left a message saying that he had finished the harry potter book) and then we watched anchorman. i think that i might have a crush on will ferrell that is not unlike the crush i have on adam sandler. i am a sucker for the men who make me laugh. i was really tired, and fell asleep at the very end, just as the credits were starting to roll but by neptune's beard, it was pretty funny.

this morning we got up early (6:30) and took some more stuff to the dump. it was faster and easier this time -we were done before 8. we got some groceries and came home for breakfast.

i am going back to bed for a while, but then i'm going to paint the ceiling in the living room and try to fix the back door. jebus.

it don't matter

listening to matty mays. not doing much. i'm about to go back to bed, actually! we met with a real estate agent. the house is going on the market on tuesday for $159,900. i hope it all goes smoothly, but i am not counting on it.

we cleaned out the basement and the shed this weekend past. our neighbours looked on in fascination mixed with disgust. we had to bring two truckloads of stuff to the dump. ugh, why didn't we do this before!? now the house looks pretty great, i must say. thank you dad for loaning the truck, and happy birthday! i hope you consider a full tank of gas to be a good present...

the boys are at mum and dad's until saturday. today they're going to ross farm. sigh. i miss them. i hope saturday is nice so that we can go to the beach. i don't have much to do while the boys are gone, really, except that i have a lot of reading to catch up on and dil and i went dvd mad at the library yesterday.

i'm reading two books right now. michael cunningham's specimen days (so far - wow.) and that weird 'real age' guy's book called you: the owner's manuel (not well written, but informative and encouraging.)

we watched 'open water' last night. it is so scary; i actually screamed out loud several times. based on a true story. so good. the 'making of' part of the dvd was really good too - lots of indie movie facts. this was a really really low budget movie. the director couldn't quit his day job, so the movie was filmed over two and a half years of weekends and vacation time. here are some pictures i found:

this is the director, in the water filming. he is wearing chainmail on his arms and legs. he had some previous diving experience.


these are the actual actors who played the main characters, not stunt people. they had no previous shark experience prior to the movie. shit, man.



okay, now, back to bed.

family portrait

listening to pink. the weather is hot and sticky, with fog and clouds.

sam is upstairs with his friend ian. jake is at mini university camp at dal this week. we are selling the house. i packed some boxes yesterday... hopefully it won't be too protracted. i am not good with suspense.

i am feeling pretty crappy. stressed out. uncertain. lost, maybe. things should be so good right now, but they aren't. i am angry too. and disappointed. and so tired. where do i even start to make things better, and how did it get to be my job? it isn't my job, except maybe ipso facto i'm the only one who thinks anything needs to be done. frig.

simple twist of fate

listening to some bobby d. it is a beautiful day out there, with the promise of a warm and wonderful weekend. i was just outside, sitting on the doorstep, drinking a cup of coffee and waiting for sam to come home.

jake, sam and i walked downtown today. it was awesome. sam was on his scooter, jake was on foot, sometimes holding my hand (!!) we stopped for some milkshakes half way there.

walking is where it is at. i am never going back to driving everywhere. i feel good walking, and i am doing my thing for the one tonne challenge and i am saving cash. what could be better?

after we dropped sam off at ian's house, jake and i strolled over to preston street to look at a house. i want to live there this fall. yes, sign me up. three blocks from the school. HUGE. four bedrooms, an attic and a basement, a backyard. what could be better? now we just have to sell this house. an agent is coming on tuesday. fingers crossed, all!

when we finished ogling the house (sorry, current occupants) we went to woozles, where jake happily spent his battle of the books gift certificate on a lemony snicket book. some lady interviewed jake about the half blood prince. jake was cool and confident, grinning into the tv camera. i don't remember being that brave when i was a kid.

before we headed home, we dropped off some library books and ate bud the spud on the wall. good day.

now sam is here, and we are about to go to the park.

this weekend will either be really great or really stupid. tonight, i may go to a bbq or i may have a shindig chez moi. tomorrow, my girl is having a party. sunday, my folks are having a party. at some point, we'll go to see charlie and the chocolate factory. jake has diving tomorrow morning.

at best, i hope that i get to the beach. at worst, i'll do mucho work in the house - mow lawn, paint stairs, plus mop and scrub and polish.

devil's eyes

listening to buck 65 again. <3

i am planning jake's birthday party, scheduled for this weekend. five kids are coming. they are going to sleep over. argh.

i need to sell my car.

sam's tooth is loose.

four bombs just went off in london's transit system.

i got a gst check.

today is wall paper removal/wall repair day.

tomorrow is paint the bedroom day.

so far today i have showered, done laundry, washed the tub, eaten.

i wish that there was pizza left over from last night. my pizza dough was top notch, if i do say so myself.

surrender to strangeness

bought buck 65's secret house against the world today (yes, at hmv...) i love him.

today is jake's birthday. i made him banana waffles with peaches and maple syrup for breakfast. he was in a great mood. he's actually been in a great mood since we gave him a gameboy on monday. sweet, considerate, cheerful. model citizen. pod person.

after breakfast, i took sam over to ian's house. we were going to take the bus, but it was nice out, and sam had his scooter, so we just went on foot. we were late, and the babysitter was a bit distressed, but oh well.

i walked by a place on henry st that is for rent. i wasn't that impressed. i stopped at dal to get ell's diploma for her. i was gonna get my student id, but then i stopped in the bathroom to rinse my wrists with cold water. there was a mirror in there and i had a look at myself. yikes! it was the first time i had looked in a mirror that day. i am all for looking natural in my photo id, but i have limits, so i'll get my id another day.

then i went down to the library and got my books. (yup, i stopped at hmv.) i got on the bus with my bag o' books and headed to the grocery store for some birthday supper ingredients, then walked home.

hot, sweaty, tired. i made us some milkshakes in claire's blender (i'm going to give it back soon) with raina's ice cream. we drank them for lunch, and i felt much better.

jake's birthday supper will be homemade pizza and lemon meringue pie. yum.